I realised the other day I’d not blogged for a while. Well that’s about to change as there’s a few things I’ve thinking about and will be sharing.
It’s funny but I feel a bit guilty about not having blogged. It’s like the scene in “The Railway Children” where they decide they’ll go and wave to the trains again after not having done so for some while. They realise that when they were lonely and upset about being in a new place the railway provided a kind of friendship and focus for them. But once they were back on their feet they left the railway behind and found other distractions. That’s how I feel about not having been active in the Vox Community for 6 weeks.
The Railway children though came about because recently I’ve felt as if I’ve pulled into a siding after being flat out on the main line for a while. (And by main line I mean as in express trains - not drugs!) It’s an odd feeling. Having been so busy with studies for the last three and a bit years I now find myself with very few bits of work to finish for college.
I’m in a kind of limbo. I don’t feel like a student any more but I’m not yet a minister either. So I’ve been sat in the siding watching everyone else go charging by and wondering when I’ll be back on track again.
I’ve felt guilt about not being busy. Especially on Thursday evening when I’d normally be at college. I shared this sense of guilt with my spiritual director who pointed out that there will be too few quiet times in years to come so I should make the most of this God given opportunity to be quiet. And he reminded me that Jesus needed time out from time to time.
So guys life in a siding can be good. It just takes some getting used to. I just hope that when I do get back on the main line I won’t be delayed by leaves on the line!
